I feel like I need to do more…

Giana’s Blog Take ONE

Here it is goes…

Sometimes, being in my late 20s feels….unsettling, yeah let’s use that word, unsettling.

I have a degree, a great family; most of the time, and a good job — yet I still have this feeling in my stomach. Not butterflies — more like pterodactyls flying around, eating at my insides whenever I think about the future. I keep questioning myself: am I doing enough? Do I need to do more? What else should I do?

So, I did all the things. I wrote down a checklist, laid everything out- the good the bad and the ugly. Ultimately everything seems fine, but it cant be. This “unsettling" shit of a feeling still lingers. It’s a feeling in the pit of my stomach — as if I’m not doing enough. As if I’m failing. Failing because I can’t figure it all out. People say, “Give yourself grace.” I even tell my clients at the salon to give themselves grace. But I can’t seem to shake it.

Sometimes I’ll get into my car and stare at the steering wheel, then look at the clock — 30 minutes, 45 minutes have gone by. Yet it felt like 5 minutes. Then I snap out of it...forcefully. I internally slap myself, like, HELLO! If that felt like 5 minutes but it was almost an hour, this just gives more perspective — the time we have is limited. The time to act is NOW.

So I’m hoping that sharing my story will encourage others to share theirs. It’ll take time, but don’t give up, right? Can’t give up. Won’t give up. Even if I want to. I’m an overthinker for sure, but never a quitter... unless I don’t see the use — well, then that’s a different story.

But I’m 29. I can’t quit. The time is now. So let’s see how it goes. It takes day by day.

When’s your day gonna start?
I started mine.

Change perspective and shift mindset, right?